yest nehx....quite a simple day nehx...all the periods pass very fast..then oso gt get back results....eh...nt very good la...emaths fail..but gt 3A2 which i think is nt enough..haixxx......then abt evening tt time wanna go zhiwei and alister de b'dae bbq party de..but then rain..but for awhile only la...then after tt still gt bbq lo...at my hse there de bbq pit...hahax...so fang bian...then gt aiwee,joanne,kelly,alister,jin jin,caslin,wensheng,lynette and some of alister de friends lo...hahax....during yest bbq,get to know alister and wensheng more better..hahax..happi nehx....gt tok more nw...nt like in choir nv tok de...hehex...then mz and i sat at the table there keep eating the bee hoon cuz nth to do..hahax...nice nehx..hahax...then after tt they brought down the cake then sang the song and the fire works lo...fun~!!...ahahax...then after tt abt 8+ or 9+ mz went hm first lo..then i stayed till very late...then they all drank wine and beer..hahax...some gt drunk like tt...say things blur blur de...hahax..but i nv drink la...i guai kia nehx..hahax..then abt 10+ qing yang,shang ying,sam and kelvin oso came...then shang ying,sam and kelvin go buy alcohol while qy kenna abandon by them...haha..so chat with him lo....long time nv saw him le wor..hahax...then when they came back,they bought dunno hw many bottle wor...then wensheng wanna drink buy they dun let..hahax..say underage...qy is a good drinker sia...drink one whole bottle or more sia..hahax....then sam they all later today all late for choir cuz can't wake up....hahax..then i acc cas walk hm to bring some food for her mummy...then walk back again...then clear all the things all tt...until abt 12+ then reach hm..then bathe and make the things for the nxt day then went to slp immediately...so tired.....hehex...

for today nehx..really very unhappy today..nt my day nehx...same old time go chir lo..then when carrying the piano up to ava,hy and razif took the piano mahx...then when we were in the lift goin out,they suddenly drop the piano sia and it landed on my feet...so pain sia..cuz the piano box very heavy as there are lots of choir file in the box...then gt bruise le...haixx..then after tt trying to get the choir sit in positions..then sam they all are indeed late....then they do warm up oso dunno wat warm up is tt..haiz...then after tt break mahz...then the section leaders nv tell wat time to come back then all dunno nv come back...then after tt ms yee come le...all very disorganise lo..kenna scold by her..then she oso say wanna punish all the leaders after choir...haixx..then it was so noisy tt i can't take it then shout very loud lo...first time so angry and shouted so loud...haixx....the whole practise i was in a bad mood lo...no mood to dance or sing..the worse thing is i was kenna transfer frm sop1 to sop2 for the 'let the earth resound'....cuz the sop2 too soft sia..haix...nw having a hard time re-learn the notes..haixxxx...really bu shuang lo...suddenly change...sop1 is smaller in number than sop 2 lehx..but they sing softer than us...then nw ma and zhiwei kenna transfer over...so unhappy abt it...haixxxxxxxxxxxxxx.......then after whole practise ms lim tok to us abt alot of things on respect all tt lo..then after ms lim's tok,ms yee suddenly say it shouldn't be the leaders who should be punished so the whole choir kenna punish lo....20 push up and sit-up...then after tt ms lim gt call all the leaders all out to tok to us lo...then say abt tt razif...always know hw to play...i really dunno wat i should do to control the choir le...can sumone tell me~??haixxx.....really lost and confuse u know....feeling tt can't breathe anytime....haixxx....then today gt councillor camp de..then see so mani sec 1 and 2..sian diao..then no bbq or wat to play...then saw mrs heikal wanna tok to her then she like busy or ignoring me....so sad....so nv go lo..stomach oso nv feeling well..so guilty sia...mz and shirley gt go..later they angry tt i nv go...sry nehx....i nv go becuz really no mood...haixxx....nxt wk still gt three practise....dunno whether i can cope anot wor...haixxxxxxx..........during this holiday i will work hard de...cannot relx anymore.... f&n project oso nt satisfied..alot of things nt satisfied la...gonna clear it all up during this holiday..today is the last episode of the 'good luck' show...suddenly realise i very long time nv saw aeroplanes le..miss it nehx....haixxxx.........so mani haixx....but still have to haixxxxxxx.........who can help me....?who will be there for me...?HAIXXXX~!!!!!!!!!!!!!k la...goin off le la...bUaiz................. __*[9.34pm]*__

Jane Tay
Desire to escape from reality